Tuesday, September 04, 2007
11:20 PM
i missed the days when we were in sch everyday, doing everything together
i missed the days when we talk abt everything that happen in sch
but now we are in different schs, different paths
heading different routes...
i always feel empty when i am in sch
too used to u being at my side
whenever smth gd/bad happens, i always wished u were there experiencing with me
and i too hope that when smth gd/bad happens to u, i will always be there with u
but it seems impossible when we are in diff schs
especially when u r in jc and i am in poly...
different holidays, different free time
when i am holidaying, you are studying for exams...
and vice versa
meeting time and chatting time become lessen
most imptly, u haf yr own good friends in jc too
and i realised that "she" is realli *ahem*
gave me that unwelcoming and 'who e hell r u" look
LOL
was actually quite offended that time but i culd understand y she acted that way
i mean if i see my besti sudd so nice with someone else i nv see be4
will obviously feel jealous...
well, maybe if i had my own gp of so call "good friends" in class
who i can really hang out with, do everything together
den probably i wun feel this way...
my class is small yet many cliques
sometimes i realli wonder if i am realli a horrible person to hang out with
i dun belong to any cliques in my class
onl sometimes hang out here and there
no "permanent place" for me
i feel totally lost, like a lost sheep in the herds
first time in my life i koe wats the meaning of 'independence'
nt depending on friend on anything be it spiritually or physically
或许 这是上帝给我的考验...
living in my own sanctuary.
