Tuesday, October 30, 2007

today went to punggol park with carissa... (last min). we were really full after eating at the nearby coffee shop so she suggested to haf a walk in the park and it turn out to be photo-taking session! we were spotting the different nice trees and sceneries to take pics... i can only say the pics were great and we sweat a hell lot! =)

i really appreciate the quietness in the park... it kinds of quiet your mind and everything.. and somehow i kind of reflected.. duno eh i suddenly feel like saying sorry to hazel... nt me but the other hazel. yah u koe who u r are.. well, i just felt that if it wasn't me den maybe the groupings will nt be such a trouble? i felt that i sort of pull u down with me? actually i was the "extra" one in the clique and i dun blame them if they think that way even if they don't. becuz i am really the one who sudd popped up in them. ya... initially i was kind of angry why both of us had to join other gps, but after thinking i knew it wasn't 'her' fault... it was mine... anyway, i really felt veri apologetic to hazel... becuz of me she had to sacrifice herself and got herself separated from her clique... i think i am the selfish 1... i felt bad and i realised i didn't had the rights to be angry...

remb when we went to toilet and i kept on ignoring you and when u keep on asking if i were angry? i wasn't angry with u.. i was on the verge of tears and i was holding back and i am afraid if i had replied, my tears wuld haf dropped... anyway, i just wan to tell u that i wasn't angry with u so dun get mistaken. :)

living in my own sanctuary.